it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 04:24:26 GMT

sometimes i feel like a asshole
i want to keep all myfriends
i wish i didnt hurt your feels like i did, i wish u didnt fall as hard as you did. im sorry i left that go that far, im sorry i "Lead" you on.
i dunno it was over break
and i was in a different state of mind
i didnt know where i was going, i didnt respect myself i felt like crap
and that i wouldnt ever get over it
and now look at me
i forgive and forget pretty much
i kno u and everybody think its a bad idea
and maybe so do i
but for now i gotta do what i have too
i feel like maybe we could have had something but it was bad timing
and i am sorry shit had to go down like that
but what can i say
love makes you do crazy things
its nice to get this off my chest
i dont hate you
i just think things went to far
i dunno maybe i didnt think, so of those times
i thought we were just friends, really good friends
and i guess you though we were something else
i dunno i cant help it
i love him
and i want to be with him ....

movies

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 18:31:30 GMT

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 movies on this list.

(x)Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 6

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
(x) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 15

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 24

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
( ) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
(x) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 31

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30 aka Suddenly 30
( ) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total so far: 39

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt
( ) KING KONG
Total so far: 47

( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total so far: 56

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 60

( ) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(x) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 67

(x) Bad Boys
(x) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride aka Roadkill
( ) Lucky Number Slevin aka the wrong man
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremacy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
( ) The Fog
( ) Ice Age
( ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Curious George
Total so far: 73

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(x) Darkness Falls
(x) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss's Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
( ) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 81

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 90

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
( ) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 103

(x) Swimfan
(x) Miracle on 34th street
(x) Old School
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
(x) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old-virgin
Total so far: 108

( ) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 111

( ) Baseketball
( ) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
(x) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
( ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 114

( ) The Jacket
( ) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
( ) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
( ) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 116

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
( ) Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld
Total so far: 120

( ) Kill Bill vol 1
( ) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) the Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 120

( ) Star Wars Ep. 4 The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Ep. 5 Attack of the Clones
( ) Star Wars Ep. 6 Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. 1 A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Ep. 2 The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars Ep. 3 Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 120

(x) The Matrix
( ) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
(x) Evil Dead
(x) Evil Dead 2
( ) team america world police
( ) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Total: 126

Now Add them up and......

126
dude there are so many more movies that ive seen that arent on here ...

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 18:09:42 GMT

he has moved on i guess
even though he swears they are just friends
he is lieing

last nite calld him, cause he calld me and i was just returnin the phone call
and we were talking, he was being all werd and i heard her giggle in the background
she is fucking 17 yr old
thats gross
i just want to curl up in a ball and not move
i wish it was break and i could just say here and not do anything
but if that was the case i would want to call him and i know i would

i just wish someone was here for me
like he has her and so many others cause of that stupid band
i cant fade this anymore
i am slowly breaking down
oh well

just my luck
back to boring boring typo

finally home ...

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 10:41:23 GMT

i duno i just realized i missed my mom :(

this sucks

you know what sucks more being awake at 530 this is lame
and there is no one to talk to ... like wtf
serious

i left ginas early cause all iwas doing was talking to him so i figured i should just leave and talk to him here
but he didnt want to talk then he just wantd to sleep
i guess he doesnt care
i dunno
i dunno what to thikn
im just another girl
maybe he shouldnt ever talk to me again
maybe he would be better off
would i be?

i am kinda startin to get a little bit sleepy.

smoking like a pack of ciggs today not really a good idea :(
ahh
i miss him

he said something about coming over tommorrow it prob wouldnt happen but maybe just maybe

i dunno i just wished he liked it here, or at least pretend too like before
i miss our 5 am convos i want them back ... i want to talk about nothing and everything
i want to not worry about what he going to think of me.
i want him to like my friends
i want us to do those things he always talks about together
ahh i need to stop this.

like serious

ps my leg is killing me, i moved around way to much today.

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 23:11:05 GMT

i seriously cant stand this
i have no idea what he wants

he CAN NOT have his cake and eat it too

i dont care how much i love him,
im not here to be used seriosuly
you either want to be with me or not
there is no hmm i want to have sex with you but then im gonna leave
and fight with you on the phone about other guys who talk to me

lame
everything is lame
i just want to be left alone like always
i just want to go back to school and sit around by myself and thats it
nothing else
ahh whatever
i never get what i want ever
seriously
whatever
.........

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 20:40:46 GMT

today was crazy

getting up at 330 when i just fell asleep at 3 is always nice

waiting in line with all this people, the line rapped around the store....
crazy shit
and everyone is acting like little kids everyone was crowding everywhere
it was ridiculous

the ihop, were i was like falling asleep eating breakfast
then sleep till 230
nice

ah
black friday!
fun times

and the whole time i was thinking, what would it be like if you were here with me, standing in this line
ah i miss you so much

and today its so nice outside, it makes me want to drive up to see you
but i know that would be a bad idea and you would just get mad at me ....
mad at me more then you already are
i hate how frustrated you make me
like seriously, you get me started then say you have to go lame
and nice job poking me on face book, why did i open my big mouth you would have never found me if i didnt say anything.
i have to bite my tongue i want you to want me
so if that means not see you for like ever
and not talking to
and only talking when you call me
note to self: ::DONTCALLHIM::
i have to back off and see if you come to me.

its going to hurt
esp if i find out you dont want me
i think im gonna take another nap. nothing else to do.
like seriously
<3 <3

ps my leg is killing me

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 04:48:15 GMT

i am in love with my doubt
and its freaking me out

you were right, something is wrong with me
i dont know what to do
im a mess
why cant i just pull it all together
i cant think i cant stand it here i need out
all i do it hurt myself
and its like im always in a room full of people but i cant hear what is being said around me
i dont understand what everyone it doing
why are they doing that
i need to be taking care of
i wish i could do it myself
i wish i was like i used to be
i wish i could do everything myself
i wish i was good enough for him
i wish

i cant believe it ....

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 01:21:15 GMT

ok ps first off i dont want anyone else
i cant see myself with anyone else
not even those lame people
i dunno

i wish it wasnt thanksgiving tommorrow i wish i could go back to school tonite
this sucks
i dunno i just want him to hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok
but that isnt going to happen

i just want to ride my bike around the city
and not have this leg pain
i dunno i cant handle this

i want to feel better
and i thought that would, but today it just made me worst
i couldnt get my mind off you
i cant think of anything else its really bad.

i dunno everything reminds of you.
everything
you said today that you were hanging out with girls i wonder if you are
(ps i love how girls that are your "friends" call me a slut of mspace)
lameossss
whatever
and i totally love how to answer your phone
yeah i know i didnt answer mine today both times you calld but
i did leave you a eamon message on your phone
hi eamon its nicole, call me back.
thats is it nothing personal, not heyy its me
or whatever we used to do
wonder why i hate xmas cause all im getting is a broken heart this year
i hate everything having to do with xmas, i hate cherry stupid kids with a mile long lists its all so stupid. no one really cares if you were a good kid
cause either way you are getting lots of stupid toys from your lame parents.

just seriously leave me alone

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 04:59:58 GMT

so i was thinking maybe i should be stronger
maybe i should pray for it
maybe god could help me

i want to be able to not want to call him back
i want not cry so much

i am trying im laughing at those things that he says that make me wanna cry
then as soon as i get off the phone i ball
and let everything out

i dont want to have to start all over
i dont want to have to pick up all the pieaces myself
but you have to those things in life sometimes

but i did have a little bit of fun lasr nite
with gina and steph, eating turkey with everybody
it was nice .....

i wonder why he is doing this
i wonder what her name is?
i hope shes good to him, and a better person then me
strong person is a better word
like i used to be, before i knew i liked him this much
before we went to nyc, and we laid in my bed together and he though i was sleeping and whisperd in my ear, "baby i think i love you"
oh god i can still see that nite, i know what i we were both wearing and iknow that we fell asleep in eachothers arm and then slept well woke up on the oppsite ends of the bed. we slept in our clothes i think i even fell asleep in my coat
i didnt want him to ever leave
i wish i could go back to the nite before that nyc trip
and tell myself not to do it
not to fall in love with his silly smile
and cute little ears
and funny little way he likes to make fun of me
and the way he makes me drop and spill everything around him
how nerves he makes me get
and the butterflies i still get when i see him waiting across the street for me
and how i know he is calling before i even look at the phone
the funny thing is i didnt even picture us together when we first meet that nite in starbucks
i thought he was so cute
but i never though we would be together like we were
this hurts so bad
i wish i could drive rite now i would just drive and see were i would wind up
i wonder what would happen
we had it, we did
but now i have no one to protect me
no one to really care about me
i dunno what i am going to do.... he is right there is no one like him out there
we couldnt even wait till after xmas i guess its been too long for him
i guess he cant live with this face of mine anymore

i need him in my life and if we can just be friends
then thats what i have to let it be
i have to give in to it
and not too much into it

ps i wish i didnt love him so much that it hurts

never fall in love

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 02:15:07 GMT

this hurts so much
me and him are done

he wants to see other people
he says that he likes other people but likes me the most
this sucks
it hurts
i cant think
i cant take this
i am never good enough for anyone

no matter what i do they just walk all over me
i need to not miss him so much
i need to not worry and think about him
he says maybe we shouldnt talk so much
maybe he is right
maybe i should just forget about him completly
i should think about someone else
but i cant help this
everything around me reminds me of him

i love him
i wantd to spent forever with him
i still want too
i want him to want me
i want him to wake up one day and say wow why did i let that go
but he wouldnt
he doesnt love me
he loves the sex and the attention i give him
he hates the drive, and the city and the person that i am

he hates that i can draw and that i have boys that are friends
but i love him
and i cry over him
i cry over things that i know will never happen again

i want to cuddle and hold his hand
and i want him to tell me that everything is going to be ok
but its not ... theres nothing he can say for it to be better

i cant stop texting him
i know hes ok, and that he is going to be esp without me
but it hurts me so much
i have heart pains
its heartache
i want it to be ok i want us to get back together
but why would iwant to be with someone who doesnt want me
i hate this feeling
i just want to curl up and sleep so idont have to think about him, about this whole thing right now

but even in sleep i cant escape him, he is all in my dreams that all i do is dream that it is all ok
but its not he doesnt like me

he doesnt want to be around me
ahhhhhh
i hate being home i have to hide everything :(

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 03:25:46 GMT

"how could you have killed her, she is laying right next to me ..."

nice, amazing thought its not like i am going to cry all night over that or anything
god damn
im such a mess

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 18:44:29 GMT

so this is lame
this class sucks, its boring and there is pretty much nothing do considering i finshed making this bags.. so yeah i get to waste the next hour or so doing nothing instead of actually doing work. like for toms class
i could be doing that right now. i have to finsh that ink drawing and actually set up my shadow box
the problem with that is i have way way to much shit iwant to put in there
oh well its gonna be crazy and take forever to draw
ahh i can never take the easy way out.

i go home tommorrow i think
happy friday the 13 everybody (even though it a day early) still have fun do something crazy tommorrow

this song sucks, why does this radio have to have lame shit on it, it was going good for awhile now its being lame

work this weekend like always, i still have to go pick up those dvds. its been like a week ah i am so bad with that shit
oh welll
its not like anything is going to happen to them

we faught last night for like a hour i guess
he hurt my feelings
i dunno how much i can take
i want it to work, i want to be with him but its not looking good right now
its like the only person he ever thinks about is himself. its not fair
i always try to think about his feelings, (esp when i am about to say something mean). but i guess its just me.
so yeah this girl next to me is listening to some shitty shit, that is so loud its like techo porno music ah how can someone think that is good music
how can someone actually listen to that shit
oh well ... this is long
im bored nothing else to do

so this sucks

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 22:20:33 GMT

so its finally my work is closing, finally ........when i get a good job with people i like this shit happens
its bad enough all these bad things are happening to me now
this has to happen
i am hoping i get to steal a bunch of shit though
cause theres like a zillon movies i want
ha
but yeah so this blows
i dunno what i am gonna do
i guess looks for another job

i miss you
i wish we were talking
i wish i could see you tonite
i have a bad feeling about all this honestly
i give you all the time in the world just dont fuck me over
i love you and my heart hurts cause of this

class went good today, my edward scissorhands turnd out great!

i am trying to clean my room and hide all your stuff. cause its a daily reminder that hurts
esp cause you want time
time away from me
how can you be ok with that, i see that you textd me last nite saying nite alot that does
thanks for making me cry hard last nite ...

what they say about love is true, you have to let them go and if they come back to you it is real. if not then it wasnt meant to be. and i dont know what i am going to do without you around . i cant handle it really now, i kinda just walk around in a daze, not really knowing what is going on around me.
but i have work to do to keep me busy for right now.
but the work isnt what is in my dreams
that baby is all you, thanks alot

ps i ll love you forever promise
god damn hellogoodbye why do you have to remind me of him :(

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 03:35:52 GMT

i hate how this is the only thing i can talk to

i am lonely and i wish this wasnt happening right now
i wish i could go back in time and delate everything, cause then it wouldnt be hurting so bad
and i wouldnt be crying like this

something i gues you can not control, no matter how hard you try
(lets just put it this way, if this doesnt work out for us i dunno what i am going to do) i wish i knew what i was suppose to do about this whole thing. i wish someone had the answers for me
i wish i could talk to someone right now
i need some hugs

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 02:13:06 GMT

i am such a mess i cant draw like this ....

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 23:38:59 GMT

this is just making me feel worst.
100% worst
i just think too much about stuff thats all, but theres nothing more important to me then this
yourr just ingoring me i feel like
if you want this to be the end just said it now
so i can figure something out
but this is honestly the first time that i felt like physical sick over something like this
my chest hurts, my heahache is back and my stomach is all over the place. i want to go smoke some ciggs and go to the dinner but i have no one to go with.
this shit sucks
i cant take it
i need you to come here hold on to my tight not let go, and tell me everything is going to be alrite, say i love you and would never leave you, and kiss my four head thats all i need right now
i need you
ill give you money for gas i just need 5 mins i swear then you can say goodbye and leave forever if that is what you want ...
is so hard to not pick to phone and just call you, it thats everything i have inside to stop myself. i can't carry my phone to class anymore cause of it. i would just text you all day and drive myself crazy when i dont get a responce.
and i am sorry for all this crap.
i am sorry i can't give you what you want
i think i am going to call you soon even though i swear i wasnt going to till you calld me but i can't take it
i need to hear your voice, even if its not happy nor exicted to hear from me.
but i can not help myself, ill give it a half a hour.
i love you no matter what

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 22:13:08 GMT

my tummy hurts, and im totally unfoused right now.
i was daydreaming in art history today about you, and about how we used to have those late night conversations about nothing really. a bunch of randomness.

i have this stupid project to get done. and i am totally not in to it, so it is not goig to happen i dont think.
i mite be using my moms car on saturday, and if that is the case i want to come see you. but i dunno if i should i dunno if you want me too. so if i do have it i will prob just call you when i am around the corner and drop off your tee shirt, and the rest would be up to you. weather or not if your busy or not. (ihope you dont read this, cause then you will know and it wouldnt be a surprize or anything, and if i dont get the car i will feel bad for even saying anything about it)

do what makes you happy ....

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 15:09:22 GMT

dear you, i could hardly sleep last nite
i didnt go to class this morning either, i just pretty much laid in bed till right now, i think its like 11. so it wasnt too long.
we talk a little on and off online last night.
i forgot what it feels like waiting for you to sign on, and i hear a door and im hoping it is you everytime. its usually not but i still hope it is. just so i get to say hi.

thanks for that text this morning
i didnt get it, till about and hour ago i dunno why i guess that is fuckd up too.

i hope i get to see you soon, i want some hugs

i noticed something everything i listen to reminds me in some way.

tell me its all going to be ok, tell me not to worry, tell me we are both going to be happy.
i don't want to lose you. ever

<3 loveme

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 04:35:18 GMT

i cant take this
i can not do this
i am doing it all for you
and ill wait forever for you

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 04:14:22 GMT

sometimes i wish i was an mermaid
so i could swim far away from here ...

dear you:

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 03:29:51 GMT

i guess i think to much
i guess i love you too much
i guess i can't really see myself with anyone else
ever! honestly
maybe i am crazy, maybe i have no idea what the hell i am doing
i have an 830 class tommorrow i dont want to go.
i want to lay in my bed all day, with you by my side.
can you not tell me not to worry i know you are doing that cause you want to me worry.
you want me to think about you all time
too late incase you didnt know that, that is just how i feel
i miss you
and love you dearly ....
love me <3

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 23:37:43 GMT

Where you are the one, the one,
That lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I miss you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.

totally how i feel
well i havent talk to you all day
i see you textd me around 5 saying hi.
and you calld me at 7:01
i was in class and in the studio working, sorry
i didnt want to take my phone cause i did not want to be tempted.
but now that i am home, i am tempted to call you back again!
i should i know but i miss my baby.

i was thinking of you today

i am going to try again

10-4-06

Wed, 04 Oct 2006 17:53:53 GMT

well since i am not really talking to my boyfriend. Cause we are on some kinda of break, it was both of our ideas. i want him to miss me and app me more, he think this will help us understand eachother better which it wouldnt but let he do what he has too
i told him one month, then he said a week
so we meet half way 2 weeks (i am hoping it doesnt take that long)
(and im hoping he remember about friday the 13th and that i askd him to come over and watch them with me)
but we will see i guess

so yeah about to why i am seriously typing, its cause i dont really have anyone else to talk to. this is mine day off so i took a bike ride over to the thrift store to look for an old makeup case to hold mine new paints in, but no luck but idid get a cute pink dress and a tee shirt. and now im watch friday the 13 part one. i will prob watch most of them today. i do have a 4 o clock class but thats not a big deal, then i think i am gonna start working on the tee shirt design.
i start drawing some ideas out last nite, some of them are pretty sweet but i guess its up to him not me.
ill just email them to him when i am done i guess.
im write later
<3

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 03:20:10 GMT

today was uneventful
like every saturday pretty much
i am unfocused so i can't work on homework
which is lame

but work today suckd, it was long and boring and i have been so sleepy lately so stand around all day sucks
i did get some justin stickers though which is nice
and totally freakd out when i unpacking new shit and saw the little mermaid god i can't wait till that comes out
i want to watch it like rite now, and it sucks cause my tape is at school

last night was the first time in a really long time that i actually slept in my own bed by myself. i cant remember the last time i did that
it was nice and cool in there :)

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 04:34:49 GMT

its been a crazy week, full of alot of stuff seeing spill canvas two nights (just 4 days apart, and not having to pay either times)
i have a good boyfriend, thanks to him i got to meet my other bf
whom i love, and is so sweet
we got to chat and smoke cigs and eat food together it good
then a "break" then 12 hrs later that was off (whatever)
class in the square, a huge project that didnt get done the way i wanted it too
sex
awkard moments, i didnt know what i was suppose to do what was ok to him and what wasnt
new tsc bag :)
doctor vists
red bulls (lots of those)
and stupid girls who should really leave my boyfriend alone

ah no matter what sometime i think i cant do anything right. and i cant make anyone happy...